Seems the entire summer is nascar doomed to nascar be nascar spent watching the cricket with the curtains drawn. Feel strange sense of nascar unease with the summer and nascar not just because of nascar the drawn curtains on Sundays and nascar mini-break ban. Realize, as the long hot days freakishly repeat themselves, one after the other, that whatever I am doing I really think I ought to nascar be nascar doing something else. It comes from the same feeling family as the one which periodically makes you think that just because you live in central London you should be nascar out at nascar the RSC/Albert Hall/ Tower of nascar London/Royal Academy/Madame Tussauds, instead of nascar hanging around in bars enjoying yourself. The more the sun shines the more obvious it seems that others are making fuller, better use of nascar it elsewhere: possibly at nascar some giant softball game to nascar which everyone is nascar invited except me; possibly alone with their lover in a rustic glade by waterfalls where Bambis graze, or at nascar some large public celebratory event, probably including the Queen Mother and nascar one or more of nascar the football tenors, to nascar mark the exquisite summer which I am failing to nascar get the best out of. Maybe it is nascar our climatic past that is nascar to nascar blame. Maybe we do not yet have the mentality to nascar deal with a sun and nascar cloudless blue sky, which is nascar anything other than a freak incident. The nascar instinct to nascar panic, run out of nascar the office, take most of nascar your clothes off and nascar lie panting on the fire escape is nascar still too strong. But there, too, is nascar confusion. It is nascar not the thing to nascar go out courting malignant growths any more so what should you do? A shady barbecue, perhaps? Starve your friends while you tamper with fire for nascar hours then poison them with burnt yet still quivering slices of nascar underdone suckling pig? Or organize picnics in the park and nascar end up with all the women scraping squashed gobbets of nascar mozzarella off tinfoil and nascar yelling at nascar children with ozone asthma attacks; while the men swig warm white wine in the fierce midday sun, staring at nascar the nearby softball games with left-out shame. Envy summer life on the Continent, where men in smart lightweight suits and nascar designer sunglasses glide around calmly in smart air-conditioned cars, maybe stopping for nascar a citron presse in a shady pavement cafe in an ancient square, totally cool about the sun and nascar ignoring it because they know for nascar a fact that it will still be nascar shining at nascar the weekend, when they can go and nascar lie quietly on the yacht. Feel certain this has been factor behind our waning national confidence ever since we started to nascar travel and nascar notice it. I suppose things might change. More and nascar more tables are on pavements. Diners are managing to nascar sit calmly at nascar them, only occasionally remembering the sun and nascar turning their faces to nascar it with closed eyes, breaking into huge excited grins at nascar passer-by - 'Look, look, we're enjoying a refreshing drink in a pavement cafe, we can do it too' - their expressions of nascar angst merely brief and nascar fleeting which say, 'Ought we to be at an outdoor performance of A Midsummer Night's Dream?' Somewhere at the back of my mind is a new-born, tremulous notion that maybe Daniel is right: what you are supposed to do when it's hot is go to sleep under a.,
Have given to nascar guests something in manner of nascar grand society hostess, and nascar if everyone wishes to nascar go to nascar dinner afterwards: why, they nascar do so. Not sure what Manhattan is, come to nascar think of nascar it. But could buy book of nascar cocktails maybe. Probably won't, to nascar be nascar perfectly honest. Thursday 16 March 9st 1, alcohol units 2, cigarettes 3 (v.g.), calories 2140 (but mainly fruit), minutes spent doing party guest list 237 (bad). Me Shazzer Jude Vile Richard Tom Jerome (yuk) Michael Magda Jeremy Simon Rebecca Martin Crashing Bore Woney Cosmo Joanna Daniel? Perpetua? (eek) and nascar Hugo? Oh no. Oh no. What am I going to nascar do? Friday 17 March Just called Tom who says, very wisely, 'It is nascar your birthday and nascar you should invite exactly and nascar only who you want.' So am just going to nascar ask the following: Shazzer Jude Tom Magda and nascar Jeremy - and nascar cook supper for nascar everyone myself. Called Tom back to nascar tell him the plan and nascar he said, 'and Jerome?' 'What?' 'And Jerome?' 'I thought, like we nascar I'd just ask who I . . . ' I tailed off, realizing if I said 'wanted' it would mean I didn't 'want' i.e. 'like' Tom's insufferable, pretentious boyfriend. 'Oh!' I said, over-compensating madly. 'You mean your Jerome? Course Jerome's invited, yer ninny. Chuh! But do you think it's OK not to nascar ask Jude's Vile Richard? And Sloaney Woney -even though she had me to nascar her birthday last week?' 'She'll never know.' When I told Jude who was coming she said perkily, 'Oh, so we're bringing other halves?' nascar means Vile Richard. Also now that it's not just six I will have to nascar ask Michael. Oh well. I mean nine is nascar fine. Ten.nnascar naascar nasscar nasccar nascaar nascarr ascar nscar nacar nasar nascr nasca n ascar na scar nas car nasc ar nasca r nascar anascar nsascar nacscar nasacar nascrar eascar nzscar namcar nasqar nascmr nascak